031 - [trapped in a maze of relationships]

[tsuntempesta]

[Someone else seemed lost in the fog. . .and he seemed absolutely frantic over it. Not over himself however, but for someone else.]

". . .JUUDAIME!! JUUDAIME!!"

[The cries were loud, and there was a noticeable trill of fear in them. He sounded almost as if he were in tears. . .]

". . . J-Juudaime. . I don't. . . don't leave me. . .W-Where. . .!!" 

[Those were definitely some sobs now. Something was very clearly wrong, here. . .]

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[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

That's the point...I don't have anything to say.

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

" . . Tch. . . I really don't get why I love you so damn much. Sometimes. I wonder if I just hate you so much that I love you."

[His words are said bitterly as he shakes his head.]

[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

{He kind of wishes he could just lie down and wake up to find this conversation to be a horrible nightmare.}

Then why don't you just stop trying so hard if it's so hard to love me.

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

" . . . You're taking that completely opposite of what I mean." [He's going to quirk a brow now.]

" . . . It harder to hate you than it is to love you. Seems like no matter how much I try to hate you, I can't. Not really."

[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

Why..would you be trying to hate me at all?

{His voice is barely a murmur.}

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

" . . Because I'm jealous."

[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

{He blinks.}

..You really shouldn't be.

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

". . .and why not? You're so. . dependable. . . So . . capable. . . I'm nothing but one failure after another."

[. . He's definitely seeming some what upset at this point, but at least not angry like before.]

". . . I cause way more problems than I solve. . ."

[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

{He runs a hand through his hair.}

Your intentions are far better than mine I'm sure...and those I think count more.

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

" . . Good intentions don't get things done and honestly all my intentions are selfish."

[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

What do you think part of Will is, Hayato? and no they aren't. I know you.

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

" . . Really? . . . Do you really know me so well? I just don't want to be alone - pretty damn selfish reasoning if you ask me."

[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

I know you, Hayato.

{He straightens up a little.}

No one wants to be alone. Why do you think I chase you so hard?

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[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

" . .I ju--" [He was suddenly interrupted - by what appeared to be himself.]

2/2

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

[There was quite suddenly two of them, the new Gokudera with a feline at his side and a gun aimed at the other.]

" . . . I think you've said enough."

[. . . someone did not seem to amused.]

". . I don't know who the fuck you think you are, talking bullshit in my form but I think you're about done here."

[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

{Takeshi stepped back and looked between them in shock. He wasn't sure how to handle this...but he was beginning to understand what everyone had been mentioning about concerning occurrences on Kunpuu.}

Hayato!

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

" . . I don't know what the hell this bastard has been telling you, but it's probably all lies."

[His gun is still steadily aimed at the 'other' Gokudera.]

". . . So why don't you just tell me who the hell you are? . . Thalassa?"

<". . . I'm you. Who else do you think I'd be?">

[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

{He watches.}

Hayato..I don't think...

{He's doesn't think it was lies at all.}

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

[Gokudera glances over at Yamamoto a moment with a frown. He's not sure what was said, but he was getting a rather bad feeling about it regardless. His attention went back to the Shadow, still not looking too amused.]

". . . I seriously doubt it."

<[The Shadow just smirks, his attention fully on Gokudera now. The smirk seemed rather malicious in all honesty.]

". . . 'I don't deserve to be with them.'. . . 'Why do I always fail at everything? Yamamoto is every thing I can never be. He's so perfect. . .'. . . 'Why haven't they thrown me out like everyone else has. . .' . . . 'I don't want to be rejected any more. . . I don't want to be alone like before. . .' I know, Gokudera Hayato. I know everything about you. . . Because I am you. I know what it's like. I've always been there. All the times you've been rejected, all the times you've wished you could hat--">

"SHUT UP!" [His grip on the gun was actually wavering now, and he seemed incredibly bothered by the things being said.]

<". . .He should have been. . . Juudaime's right hand man. . . They both would be so much better off without me. . . I just. . .can't let go. . . I'm so selfi--"

[He didn't seem too terribly bothered when a bullet suddenly went through him. The wound merely faded, as if it had never been there to begin with.]>

[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

{Takeshi watched horrified as Gokudera shot at himself.}

H-Hayato be careful with--!

{He doesn't know how to help you even though he's sure which one is really you by now.}

. . .and you thought Uri was bad. . .

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

<[The Shadow just smirked a little, patting the area where he'd been shot.]

". . . Why don't you just admit it? We're both the same person. There's no sense in keeping me down all the time. . . Shouldn't you just be honest with yourself, Hayato?">

"YOU'RE NOT ME!"

<[When the voice spoke again, it was distorted oddly - in an almost dark manner.]

". . . Oh? . . . Well, I guess I don't really need the useless part of me anymore anyways."

[. . . Quite suddenly, it's not looking so much like Gokudera anymore. It seems to be a large black cat - a bit bigger than Uri's other form. The ears were tattered and there were red flames swirling about it. It seemed that Gokudera's rejection is what caused it to distort this way. At any rate, the Shadow!Feline is now launching itself at Gokudera - clearly having every intention of killing him.]>

Re: . . .and you thought Uri was bad. . .

[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

{Takeshi didn't hesitate to draw his sword and attempt to cut down the feline monster.}

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

<[The large feline lifted a paw with every intention of just knocking you out of the way. In it's opinion, this had nothing to do with you anyways. . .]>

[. . . But Gokudera didn't seem alright with the idea of the feline hitting you, so he's going to place himself in the way, pulling out some dynamite in the process to toss at the cat. Of course, this only ended with Gokudera being hit with the large paw. . .and sent flying back towards Yamamoto with a yelp.]

<[The feline yowled angrily at the dynamite, but other than mild irritation, it didn't seem to do much damage. . .]

" . . . Pathetic! But that's no different from any other time, right Hayato?">

[swingswallow.livejournal.com]

{Takeshi wrapped himself around Gokudera from behind as they fell backwards protecting his partner from the worst of the impact. Unfortunately the added weight made it harder to control his landing and his head hit against the road with a slight crack.}

"Don't listen to it."

[smokin-bomb-59.livejournal.com]

" . . T-Takeshi. . .!!" [He was trying to shift around to make sure you were alright. . . But he wouldn't really be given much of a chance. . . ]

<[. . . as the large feline was advancing on them, the wind about them suddenly picking up to an almost dangerous degree.]

". . . Yes, just continue denying everything that I am. . . But even if you try. . .You know, don't you?">